This weekend has been one of the hardest I have ever experienced. God closed a door in my life that I didn't want to close. I wanted so desperately to ignore His pleading in my soul and do what I wanted, but I knew I wouldn't be happy. I couldn't bear not living in His will. However, my heart was still hurting (and still is). Though through the wondering, pain, and tears God whispered in my ear, "I will give you the desires of your heart." I don't know why that popped in my head, but I am glad it did. He never ceases to give me hope. He knows what my heart longs for, better than I do, and He has a perfect adventure waiting for me. Somehow this situation will be turned into something for His glory. Until God lets me in on the big picture I will hold on to this truth:
"Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires. Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you."
Psalms 37: 4-5
God I am trusting in you and I take delight in your company, plan, and mystery. Take this life and guide it to brighter shores, guide it to your will. I take delight in you and you take delight in me. I thank you for always protecting me from myself and I pray I will let you keep doing so. Take this life and make it yours. Amen.
He is no fool who gives up what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose.
- Jim Elliot
proud of you for holding on despite your desires.
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I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH :)
ReplyDeleteLove you too! and thanks Jordan :)
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