Destruction of Us Starts With Our Purpose and Love Revisited

John 10:10 "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."

I have been thinking about this a lot lately. How much we under estimate what the Devil would do to destroy us. I believe he starts with our purpose and our relationship with God. By taking down one you take down the other. For me I have realized he is desperately trying to take down my purpose. I mean I am a woman of many strengths, but everything that God has called me to use for my purpose has went from extremely strong as a young girl to feeble as a teen. He has attacked my faith, my public-speaking ability, my dancing, my belief in love, my calling to be a missionary. I mean it is so funny! Ok maybe that last line caught you off guard, well good.

You see the Devil is trying to destroy my purpose. He knows God has something great in store for me and even though it does suck having something constantly trying to undermine me, I've got God so whom shall I fear. I'm just excited that I am worth the Devil's effort of destruction, that I am a threat to his goal. It makes me want to be so much stronger. So God can have an even bigger victory, so I make him proud.

So really the next step for me is building all of what the Devil has tried to take away back up again. Some of the list has been building for a long time and some has been under siege for years. Specifically love. I have blogged about this recently, but I feel burdened to share again, and the more God and I focus on it the more my soul is filled with joy. Every human being has been implanted with the need for relationship and intimacy, just like our creator. And for so long I have longed for that intimacy and no human could or wanted to fill that need. Then I realized how could I find a healthy love in someone if I wasn't depending on God's love? How would I ever be a Godly wife if I wasn't depend on His love and showing His love to others? The answer was I couldn't. Since that realization God had changed something in me and I think people could tell, at least the Devil could. How do I know? Because after that realization he has tried to take me down and let me tell you he is good, but God is way better. Lately my parent's marriage has been the weapon formed against me and the Devil has tried every way to use it to cause doubt in God's love, in love at all. Honestly, if it would had been a month ago his current tricks might have worked on me, but I have come out optimistic. Instead of bitterness to marriage, the holy creation of God, I am more excited for it than ever before. All I have to thank is God, my ultimate love. 

So I know this was a little all over the place. God has so many things on my heart right now it is hard to know where to begin. 

I just want to end with this whatever God is calling you to do, never say you are to weak and that you are not good enough. Don't believe the lie of the enemy! With God all things are possible and when He uses your weaknesses in His work, it's just more of a testimony to this. He uses the willing, not the strong.

I'm completely in love with Tenth Avenue North right now. I am now pushing their awesomeness onto you.

"I wasn't God's first choice for what I've done for China…I don't know who it was…It must have been a man…a well-educated man. I don't know what  happened. Perhaps he died. Perhaps he wasn't willing…and God looked down…and saw Gladys Aylward…And God said - "Well, she's willing." 

           - Gladys Aylward